i closed my eyes. to rest from a headache.
and wad i saw was a man. a man wih a knive. and the knife came and stabbed. right through my heart. i felt the pain. the hurt. and the fear. fear of leaving this world and meeting Him. i prayed right after that. i felt so afraid. i felt the fear. i really didnt knwo wad to do. i was so scared. that this would happen. in real llife. i was so afraid to leave all i have worked for. leave all my friends and family behind. as i move on. i really dont want to. its so scary. so scary. i really didnt know wad to do. i felt so lost. i didnt know how to react. i was so. lost.

i smsed caro after i was feeling a little bit. and i guess i freaked her out. hahaha. so yea. this was wad i was refering to. i think you can link it to everything in the sms? yea? hahaha. i guess this is a momentary thing. its over la. as long as im sure of my faith, i guess i'll be fine. i should trust in Him and belive that he;d be there for me? yes. i belive so. it was just that moment. that moment. i felt everything. tumble on me. i guess i have to trust Him to guide me on my life. yea. thank you caro. x)